oh bertenang..

hei gei guys!
walaweh..long time no visit on my own blog, muahahaha!

tertekan! haha, asal tertekan je bru aku cri blog aku ni..
ho la, sal aku nak mengadu domba di sni.nobody willing to lend me their shoulders, sob sob~
i unable to attend my friend marriage today, its so regretful. but how, i just couldn't go!!!
alor star from ipoh, for me its too far...my parent wont allow me to drive there of course, by the way, i'm short of budget..blame me, blame me. no wonder nanti kenduri aku nanti takde sape nak mai. ceh!

then aku geram dgn cencorot yg selalu merajakan diri apabila di malam hri di rumah aku. mau terkejut cipan aku dibuatnye bile masuk2 bilik air kuar mahkluk itam bermisai berekor panjg, lari laju2 depan aku, cial lorr...nasib aku tak sembam jatuh, geramnye, geramnyer!!i kill u, kill u~~ <-- nada lagu soko =)

ikutkan byk bende nak digeramkan, tp..kalau aku ikutkan sakit...walaweh...bole kene blood pressure di usia muda ni..i must learn to cool down n control my emotion, yeah, i'm kewl, yuck~

haishh...pls, pls..one more tense is coming...pekakkan telinga, kosongkan minda..tutupkan mata...ZZZZZzzz.... =)

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i know i never be alone

When i feel that my life is waiting for something and times are passing away just like that..Allah is always with me..

When i feel that i already trying all out and does not know what more to do, Allah is being with me..

When all incidents happens with no sense and never be expected, I feel so depressed..but Allah here to calm me down ..

When i feel so alone while my friends are all busy chatting, flirting and laughing on the phone..i know Allah always by my side..

When i desperate for a true love that never attend in my life, Allah got loves and cares that far better than any all and i realize He already create someone to be my partner one day..

When i feel that i in love with someone, while i know that love will never get any response..but Allah know what is already serve in front of me and He set all the best for me..

When i feel been betrayed and upset..i realize that only Allah can heal my wound and make me smile again..

If suddenly i can see and realize there are hopes for me, that is Allah whispering to me..

When everything is running smoothly and i feel so grateful..that is Allah blessing on me...

When something wonderful happens and i feel its was so miracle..that is Allah smiling at me..

When i got a wish to be fulfilled and a dream to be reached..that is Allah opens my eyes and call me with my name..

I must always remember..wherever or whenever i go and whatever i overcome..Allah always know and He always wit me..

(p/s: extended from the posting of LIFE HURTS)

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i'm well today

currently feel so lazy, to do anything that relate wit my study.assignments, reports, projects,proposal,arghhh..what so ever.. (due dates, pls stop chasing over me)
got no motivation la, aga~.

this song from muck, the perfect sunshine..glory band in perak zaman aku skolah, 90an kot....huhu, time tu mmg admire gak kat ducktoi tu.....bodysurf..tempat jammin paling best di ipoh, ade lagi ke x, aku pun dah lame tak jenguk.mane taknyer, duk merantau negeri org jer,isk.
i just proud wit PERAK band, ngeh2, kumpul duit cukup nak beli kaset Kopi Sechewen.muehehhe..layan sleepy zine.. agaaa..lagi satu fav band aku time itu, bloodymary, heww...grunge tak grunge, janji layan.. IPOH MALI TALAK SOMBONG maa.. pastu, aku lupe kan derang, skrang bru terkenang2 zaman itu. depa wujud lagi skang, pi add myspace depa, http://www.myspace.com/muck

(i got call from my dad on this late evening, he told me that he get suffocation (hard to breath) .. doc said that his health still ok, but if the simptom repeat, pls come back for another check. u know what i'm thinking, of course, about heart attack, in his age, the risk was so high. so remind him again n again, pls take serious in his diet. frankly, i want to be wif my dad all the time, coz i'm really afraid of losing him in anytime..diz distance put me away from him now, sigh.. mak..i love u 2..)

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LIFE HURTS

LIFE IS A MESS.
WHY I SUCK AT EVERYTHING THAT I'M DOING?
NOTHING GOING RIGHT.
.BURDEN
.BURDEN
WHY I WANT TO GET SOMETHING THAT I KNOW I CANT HAVE IT..?
I CANT CONTROL MYSELF ANYMORE
AM I THE UNLUCKIEST PERSON IN THIS WORLD?
HAPPINESS NEVER STAY FOR LONG.
ALL I CAN SAY THAT MY LIFE IS PRETTY WORST!
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST?? IMPOSSIBLE!

p/s: do i need to follow the life instructions?

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good old days

oh oh, sgt palat hidup ni.

maaflah kedua2 posting aku yg sblum ni sgt mengjengkelkan, uhuhu, tidak bermaksud untuk mengekspres feeling sedemikian rupa, tetapi jiwa yg kacau ni memaksa2 jari aku untuk menaip.

hoho, sila abaikannya. mari meneruskan kehidupan yg sememangnya sgt dull dan null ini (hidup nina ricci la..) music pls!

still remember Juliet The Orange (the quizzical, eyelash, ode from psychopath), underground duo at mid-late 90s, sgt nostalgic dan memorable buat aku.. lagu2 yg sgt evergreen n still fresh in my mind. seperjuangan dengan nice stupid playground ground (bedroom windows, she wants), butterfingers (girl friday, sober) etc. they make us proud with local underground music, which nowadays, err, err, ape ye ptt aku katakan, erm!sangat berdaya maju hoho. i always willing to listen (n critic too).

thanks for the memory and the song they had made. they brought the good old days to us.

p/s: not found the original VC, credit to biscottifish from You Tube.

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cruel feeling

I who have nothing
I who has no none
adores you and wants you so much
I'm just a no one
with nothing to give you
But I love You

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late 90s underground band

Juliet The Orange, masih ingt kat nama band ni. nama yg cukup nostalgic & memorable buat aku.. lagu2 derang bagi aku evergreen sampai sekarang.

sentuhan muzik yg sgt melankolik. yes, they are local band, but not so commercial ketika itu, paham2 sahajalah. penerimaan industri kepada muzik underground tidak terlalu mesra alam.

JTO, seperjuangan dgn butterfingers, nice stupid playground - they make us proud with underground muzik. when music ic created , the music still forever in our heart.
they always in mind.

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heart confession

THE MOST THING I HATE THAT YOU DO
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YOU MAKE ME LOVE YOU

(aiyai, can't help it..)

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metal band from indonesia

thanks dearest herman for introduce this song to me. best metal song I've ever heard from indonesia.. u can search other video of the Killing Me Inside feat with a metalchick from indonesia, hear she growling, owh its owesome~

err, but i dont really sure, whether this song was really written by K.I.M, or they might just sang a cover..lum rase nak mengkaji lagi.

(awas, kalau metal dr barat tu, byk berunsur satanic, sila peka akan lirik di sebalik growling mereka)

p/s: sebarang post dlm blog ini bebas dr agenda pro-kontra antara negara berjiran

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play this song

this song-really sweet, cute & quite romantic..just love it, rase nak terbang2..

Malaysia's product, cool! keep on good works CAPRICE.
actually ade somebody bagi lagu ni pada aku, kalau tak aku pun tak penah tahu, hoho~
then, aku ushar2 juge lagu2 depe yg len..huhu, tp ni je yg aku berkenan.

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life is not a torture

mmg susah nak dapatkan apa yg kite btul2 mahukan..sbb kita manusia yg kurang bersyukur..benda yg tiada,itulah yg diinginkan, yg penah ada dalam genggaman, dilepaskan ke lautan..kemudian menyesal..tidakkah itu dimanakan kurg bersyukur..

aku manusia yg biasa, kdg2 terasa diri ni serba kekurangan..aku mampu untuk memperbaiki diri ini, tetapi dek kerana kekerasan hati, dibiar saja diri dgn sifat2 kekurangan yg semakin menebal. cuba lah bangun menjadi manusia yg bermotivasi, berdikari..soalnya..mahu dan tidak mahu..

aku rasa aku SUNYI..aku kerap mengatakan pada jiwa ni bahawa aku SUNYI, padahal terlalu ramai org di sekeliling aku yg sentiasa berdamping dan menemani aku..ramai..

apa kerana tiada insan tersebut aku mengiktiraf diri ini sunyi..mungkin..i feel like a hopeless while i'm not..change ur mentality nina..reach for somethin important n good for ur life n future. life is not a torture, but if u wanna,its happen.brings happiness to ur life, at least u r not a loser of everything..

(p/s: why my first posting ini agak touching2 ya..haisk, aku jarang menulis perkara sebegini, sorry guys, aku berharap blog aku menjadi park yg kita bole share perkara yg berfaedah, not such an nonsense feeling matter like this)

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